I'm not a very envious person. I am very happy and content with who I am, what I have, where I have been and even why I am who I am and why I do the things I do.
I suppose being raised catholic, in the deep recesses of my mind I recall the 10 Commandments. I don't covet. I feel for those less fortunate and I rejoice for those more fortunate. Life is what it is and what I make of it. I can choose to be or do more than I do and I have no one else to blame for my misfortunes, because in the end, life has molded me into ME. I am comfortable.
So...the reason for this post? As much as I don't want to be, sometimes I can find myself envious. Envious of other people, envious of other's skills.
And as of late, the one thing I can't shake...my envy of other's abilities to navigate technology.
You see, I believe it has been weeks, maybe even months that I have been trying to update the blogs I follow. I follow blogs in Google Reader and I have "managed subscriptions" as well as "manage" in my blog dashboard. I have hit "unsubscribe". I have hit the trash can symbol. I have "stopped following".
Each and every time they show updated and then...THEY ARE BACK. I refuse to quit. I have tried on different computers with different servers. I have tried probably a dozen times.
And today, I found that someone had stopped following me. I'm not worried about having one less follower. I prefer to be the wallflower. I prefer to be the silent observer reading and following others and somewhat sharing but not having to be followed.
What I am envious of...how in the hell did SHE do it? It was probably a quick click. A mere thought and a quick action and done.
Why is it that sometimes when I think I can figure things out, I find myself completely incompetent and facing envy full frontal?